In some ways, and a lot of ways I feel I do not say it enough. But I honestly, wholeheartedly, and gratefully love each and everyone of you, friends, watchers, friendly stalkers XD. I would love to be on here more often, and make pretty things but I have sadly sacrificed my time to work mostly. However that being said, I still wish to interact with all of you more as I would be nowhere upon this website without all of you. You all make my day special, with lovely comments, critique, shenanigans and the notion you'd spend time with me. All of you are special in my eyes and it's what makes uploading that next new piece very special and exciting. The chance to dazzle you all and improve to keep on entertaining.
I wished to shed some illumination upon such matters as my absence and extended periods of silence. I work as a security officer within a megachurch of Texas. It is no easy feat, one might not think a church to be this big yet it is. However the people and church goers I generally enjoy the company of and make things a little easier to bare. Though not religious myself, I have been gratefully accepted in their community as a friend which I am happy. I however despite my not religious nature do not condemn nor hate upon religion. There are many good things I see that are granted to those whom believe. So I cannot hate upon that. That being said I have had those whom in a sense like to judge and or question as to why I would choose to work at a church and that I must have some reason. In all honesty I really needed a job and so far it has been most helpful. But lets skip past this somewhat, where most of my stress stems from.
My coworkers and mostly my boss whom I question. What bothers me is the sheer lack of any sort of decency more along the lines of simply caring about ones behalf. As a security officer I know full well what my duties are...but yet I don't understand the blatant how to put this apathetic and rude nature of a few of them. Take yesterday for example, in question as it has been my most frustrating day. The mechanism of my window that winds it up upon my car sheared off and sadly I being a safety and worrywart was very concerned about the well being of my car even in a garage.
Now granted I know I am not innocent as in between breaks I would go visit my car and I also attempted to fix it however I find out my boss would just sit there and spy on me more or less. And I get it, I'm not really trying to waste company time, but I did not wish my vehicle stolen. But being reprimanded when he could have expressed perhaps a little concern for my heightened anxiety or even offered to help or directed me to any local places I could have taken my car to fix would have been much appreciated versus being told well that I'm good for nothing.
I do my best to accomplish my work, and do my best to do a good job so being told I am well a piece of shit does irk me on a personal level even if I don't physically or emotionally show it. I'm however trying to get into a better job which looks very promising so I won't linger too much upon this subject.
But that is part of the reason of my silences, elevated stress and where I wish stress wouldn't exist. I'm happy however the church members are there to sort of be just some sort of decent human interaction.
However moving on....
Welcome, from the bottom of my heart to its fullest nature I cordially welcome you to my page and I am delighted to be given a chance to entertain you all. I hope to interact more with all of you as you all truly do make my day more bearable and special.
And with this I wish to announce that I'm back on full time art, and will be uploading mainly the art I owe. I have an updated list I will upload once I return from work. But thank you all, I love you all soo much.
Thanks for being my friend in times most dark and dismal.